The loss of Rumely

When Rumely had his first Seizure our world was turned upside down. He was put on Phenobarbital  for them after continuing to have them every 4 hours for an entire day. He seemed to be under control when we were woken up in the middle of the night to Sadie having her first episode. Just one seizure and then done, however, it was only 13 days after Rumely's first as well. What are the odds of this being genetic? The Vets all claimed it to be genetic epilepsy but we kept fighting to find the cause. Every 2.5- 3 weeks Rumely would have another seizure episode, each one worse with increased number of seizures than the last. Then, like clock work, 6 days later Sadie would have another episode also worse than her last. It didn't matter if we medicated them or not, we changed medications, foods, goat feed, ran blood tests, planned to test our homes air quality and for mold, test our water when one day, our world came to a screeching halt. 

On Wednesday, November 9th I came home from work. I had developed a bad feeling earlier in the day around lunch time and I couldn't shake it. But here I was, 6 PM at my front door and  with the turn of the door handle our whole world stopped. Stella did not greet me at the door with Rumely like they usually did, Sadie did not make a sound in her kennel as she always does. Instead, I was met with the smell you get when your dog has seizures. One of urine, saliva and poop from their loss of all control during these horrifying events. I called for them with no answer as I walked up the stairs. Looking to my right I see Sadie trembling in the back corner of her kennel, it wasn't her. Turning to my left I see a sight that my brain couldn't comprehend. Rumely and Stella laying there together. Stella's head on his side gently looking at me. I stared for the longest time waiting to see a breath from our big guy. Nothing. Dropping my purse at my feet I hit my knees next to them calling his name. As I laid my hands on his deep chest I felt that the life had left his body early on in the day. Stella was heartbroken and Sadie was scared. I was broken, shattered. My big lug of a baby boy was no longer with us. 

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Stellas story

This girl did a lot of healing on my heart and doesn't even know it. In 2011 lady, my collie of 12.5 years, passed away in my arms. It was that Christmas after she had passed that I saw a poster of the sweetest collie puppies at the feed store. I went home and immediately told my mom and I had hoped to get one. She broke down into tears immediately at the mention of collie puppies. I realized then that she was not ready for another one in our lives, and neither was I. The next year I was feeling like I may be ready, but not for the sable color my old girl was it had to be something different. I contacted breeders in my state looking with no luck. Nothing felt right. Several months passed when I was cleaning out an old drawer and found that number for the collie puppies over a year previous. I decided I'd give her a call and see. To my dismay, she had one blue Merle collie female left. The people had backed out last minute and she was gorgeous!  I told my mom and she didn't break down in tears like she had in the past she just sadly asked if I was ready. I put a lot of thought into it and felt I was. I was however torn between keeping back my baby bunny Max who was so special to me and getting this puppy. I decided I was the best home for Max and I could not part with him and the breeder understood completely. Then Christmas time of 2013, I got an email that I was not expecting. It was that breeder saying she would be having her last litter with that pair of collies and was wondering if I would still like one. We had just gotten case, our Pyrenees puppy and it was difficult to imagine a secknd puppy but I said Yes. Yes,Yes,Yes,Yes,Yes!  Patiently We waited for the call on if the puppies had been born and finally they were. I picked Stella out at 1 day old and it was love at first sight. That was the one. Funny thing is I'd wanted a male, not female. Things work in mysterious ways sometimes! 

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My flashback friday

#flashbackfriday to the day We had to say goodbye to my sweet Kitty Bo Bo when Case was only a few months old. Never in a million years did I think I'd lose him in just nine  short months later. it has been almost a full 4 months since losing my sweet boy and the pain is still there. I still ache to kiss that big forehead of his before bed, hear his breathing at the base of the bed while I fall asleep and some mornings I still find myself waiting for him to come in when my alarm goes off for his morning snuggles of being half on the bed because he never did figure out how to get his back end up there Lol. Stella still will lay on his grave and look at me Sadly but with rumely now in our lives it has been a little easier to breath, to love and to survive the pain of losing our sweet boy so young and suddenly. This flashback is for my first boy who can never be replaced and will always have a piece of my heart. Still miss him every day. #greatpyrenees #greatpyreneesofthehour #gentlegiantoftheday #missthatface #missingcase #takentoosoon